Sunday, June 11, 2006
[小桥流水 花恋蝶 风轻轻地吹
往事莫追 你了解 我等的是谁
梅雨时节 飘落叶 等满满的水位
全身而退 我不会 我等时间惭愧]
南拳妈妈 - 花蝶恋
beautiful lyrics, beautiful song..
一时的失落能使人坠落谷底
人与动物不同之处尽是如此
但只要能找到安抚人心的事
一时的失落也能被化作力量..
在一个介绍南拳妈妈新专辑网页看见了这段文字：
方文山绝妙韵美的词，将“蝶恋花”这个词牌名对倒成“花恋蝶”，成了另一种爱情里的角色互换的趣味。(sounds super c lit ah) but 重点是 --〉其实大多数人在爱情里扮演的，不是那流连花丛的蝶，而是痴痴等候的花。。。感触良深，吃饱没事做的不防思考一番喔。
以下本来应该是花恋蝶的歌词， 但不知从哪里来的更美的一段：
婉转的他 不懂说话
窈窕的她 从来无话
蝶恋花 翩翩飞舞未归家
每晚每天 仍期待身边解语花
花偏爱假装哑巴
每晚每天 仍期望他肯先说话
盼蝶儿 不要害怕
暖暖春天 匆匆去罢
转眼之间 长长炎夏
蝶恋花 偏偏只会围绕她
每晚每天 仍期待身边解语花
花不爱假装哑巴
每晚每天 仍期望他敢先说话
盼蝶儿 不再害怕
片片秋枫 飘飘降下
冷冷秋意 明媚如画
蝶恋花 终殉爱伴飞花
每晚每天 曾期待身边解语花
花偏爱假装哑巴
每晚每天 仍期望他肯先说话
盼蝶儿 不要害怕
每晚每天 曾期待身边解语花
花不爱假装哑巴
每晚每天 会期望他敢先说话
盼蝶儿 不再害怕
美吧！不知是否是真正的《蝶恋花》。。。
虽然没写作的天分但至少爱欣赏吧~
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9:45 PM
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初恋粉色系
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钟声敲醒萌芽的爱情
微风透露春来的讯息
我成天躲在被窝
幻想和你手牵手
天空不禁飘起了小雨
校门口没有人来接你
如果你允许 能否让我
帮你撑伞陪你走
彩虹射穿太阳雨(射穿太阳雨)
像爱情穿梭四季（穿梭了四季）
蓝天赶走了乌云
教室里偷吻了你
初恋的粉色系 脸颊旁的唇蜜
透露爱情来临的小秘密
催眠般的魔力 陷入你的陷阱
抽钥匙希望能够载到你
初恋的粉色系 任性的大眼睛
像棉花糖般佻皮又淘气
没有云好天气 像恋爱的心情
骑我的bubu载著你 搭乘甜蜜
低腰裤 搭上淡蓝眼影
训导主任都被你吸引
没痊愈的草莓印
躲在围巾里喘息
挂在班牌上的棒球帽
是下课想约你的暗号
手机没讯号 也能收到
放学一起吃汉堡
心型圈
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我送上初恋 在你的面前
再将我爱你温习 一遍
我无法首演 对你的思念
若爱有风险 我宁愿中箭
那一年春天 爱发芽蔓延
我们故事颜色鲜艳
我将爱完全 花在你身边
对爱纠缠很明显想腻在你的房间
触电的瞬间 同一边肩并着肩黏你脸靠着脸
看着照片许愿 傻笑了好几遍画十字在胸前
闭眼祈祷梦会实现
呵气在玻璃上面 画心型的圈
雾渐渐不见 你终于出现
听不进劝 对爱死心眼
希望这趟爱情走很远
我用我指尖 画心型的圈
然后碎碎念 想像你听见
空出时间 默背你的脸
认真翻字典查我们的 永远
偏见
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我手心的温度渐渐在离开
你口中的谎言慢慢能明白
早知求也求不回来 即使最后只剩残骸
心不会更改 没有祝福 我明白
看凋零的玫瑰在静静发呆
朋友对我责怪要我放得开
固执对我是种虐待 越爱得深越难抛开
爱是种偏见 如果可以再重来
我明白爱情已经超载
爱的完全坏了姿态
你冷眼看待就像是种伤害
我好像站在无人山崖
全世界都抛在外
明知你不再回来我早已明白
假装
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呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后 慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑 反正你看不到
我要的幸福 遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦 那些最初的美好早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮 走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了 穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道 我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱 一直会让我依靠
继续等待 还心甘情愿的 不 想 逃
假装多好依然是依然是暧昧的 tone调
一个人无理取闹 两人世界的煎熬
我被自己 困在自己设下的 圈套
像是驼鸟相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见 傻到了无可救药
其实早明了你的爱已随风飘
想要找再也找不到
假装多好我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱 还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好依然是依然是暧昧的同调
一个人无理取闹 两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的 圈套
假装自己已解开冰冷的 手铐
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8:54 PM
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haiz.. haf been busy n lazy to update.. almost wanna kill tis blog le.. anw, like nobody reads .. haha coz i nvr blog? nar, the cycle continues.. watever.. but whenever i c smt i sldnt c, i cant help but to feel liek blogging.. haiz.. human beings always liek to find things out of nothing.. ur life can actually be very happy n sweet, but u choose to think too much n see too much. internet is somehow bad.. but it isnt good to remain ignorant either.. it's some sort liek cheating urself in another way.. now i dunno if it's good to noe too much.. ur mind tend to wander far away, wif ur own imagination.. if u dunno much, u live wif ur assumptions.. ur innerself tend to tell u not to find out more, but ur curious side betrayed u to know more abt things that can hurt u.. contradicting human beings. life is really liek a roller coaster, a minute ago u can be on clouds nine, a minute later u can juz easily sink to the bottom of the pit, n injured on the 1 min journey down.. the cycle juz continues.. well, maybe one sld juz learn to see open n accept the reality.. argh.. human species are juz so foolish.. well, maybe i sld juz be engrossed in work n keep my mind occupied huh, so the mind cant wander to lalala land.. but haiz my work is juz so slack.. hope the coming week can be beta n beta.. haiz.. motivation of the next 2 weeks is juz my cousin's "bday wedding chalet". . seems hard to come man haiz.. to think that some stupid motivation have kept me going for the past week omg..
music therapy...
- always here waiting for u -
5:05 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
argh, thou it occassionally feels really good to have someone talking abt u in the blog, but not to the extent that, erm, anyhow assume things. no worries, i am not talking abt u, the person have no access to my blog i think =X opps like v bad? but hmmz, not everything is " she n me" lo. it's actually "she" only, or "all of us" lah.. alamak.. *faints* haiz duno wat to do..
mother's day is the busiest day of a daughter i guess. hard pleasing everyone, tired. haiz. but yah, i became main chef on the day.. haha my amazin cookin haha cant posted here leh, too bad haha. but i noe they are happily digested in my stomach alrdy. no crabs but the meal is okay lah huh? ha..
hard organizing stuff. everything seems to crash on the same day. 2oth is really such a great date huh? haiz.. i always land myself in messsessss.. have been looking much much forward to feel the sun but i dunno if it can come true in near future haiz. so many things coming up. wld really enjoy more of those impromtu ones i guess? haha *smiles* hmmz but yah, go when i feel like going, do when i feel liek doing. carefree is the word izzit? haiz watever.. 要做一个人。。很麻烦。 u need to consider all factors, n place urself last haiz.. *shake heads*
it's either too much sleeping or the feeling of lost that makes one moody argh..
- always here waiting for u -
12:12 AM
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
have been travelling everywhere on bus recently.. 157/174 to orchard n 106/99 back nowadays.. but it feels good to travel on bus (i do mean air con bus haha, double decked even beta). those long rides allow u to either stone totally, or think abt things u wldnt when u are busy doing ur stuffs. have got the bez time now to really enjoy rides, coz u need not worry abt wasting time not reading or doing anything constructive.. it really feels good.. but juz one thing i realised, i haven seen a single soul rnd those rich areas of bukit timah.. not inside the hse, nor at the car porch.. only cars n hse.. seems kinda dead huh? -_- hdb seems somehow beta haha no offence..
some of my hair dropped=( i duno how long it will take for it to grow back that length. but i cant let those wild grass grow n do nothing.. this cycle juz continues n maybe that's y my hair juz cant grow.. argh. those hairdressers muz be earning big bucks, 45 for juz liddat.. oh my god, if not for the vouchers, i wldnt go there.. i dun deny that they are good coz it is really nice, but it's only temporary, for like 3 hrs. coz after i wash my hair, it's back to square1.. the rest is up to me to handle alrdy argh. it's always liddat.. *argGh
n i finally haha, after so long, touched my vodka. have been walking pass it everyday when preparing for exams n during exam period. my mum have been saying "你那瓶还不要喝阿？" everyone else seems scared of the bottle dunno y.. haha so it's mine lo. yah, so there is some improvement now, the meniscus went down.. lolx..
had one of my happiest 2.30hr after so so long.. beaming from the bottom of my heart.. =) i really do cherish that (",)
- always here waiting for u -
11:02 PM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
wah biang, i juz realised the lecturer of my intersem module is called Michael Tay.. win le lo, nvr call tis name wif tis sirname ma tsk tsk.. ponning lec tml haha. =P makes no much diff coz i slept my way thru for the past 2 days.. anw, juz had feast.. haha XO 螃蟹米粉 wif super big fish head that is super delicious, n some other dishes.. haven eat crab for a long long long long long long time.. yummy.... werid, cant eat prawn, can eat crab, can eat lobster. my mum claimed that prawn is more poisonous? haha..aiyah, more xpensive ones can eat la.. haha had a very fulling dinner, happie haha. the journey back is oso interesting. juz a slow walk of abt 10 mins, the feelin is juz great. i lov my family haha. had a super ambitious aim tis week, haha like cooking crab? lolx. if i really do, perhaps one might juz be crawling rnd the hse when we are sleeping. hope i wldnt set my hse on fire. =X sort of wanting to fly b4 i can walk huh? haha.. ambitious, ambitous. the thot of the menu, i am actually laugh at myself alrdy. we shall c how it goes. lolx.
well, me poor hamsters 分居 officially alrdy =( i dismantled the ladder so there is totally no chance for them to accidentally break the partition in the middle of the nit, squeaking till i jumped out of the bed in the middle of the nit.. i miss their squeaking, how they used to play wif one another, disturb one another, fight occassionally coz they are juz playful. no more now. think they have become foes officially. i thot they missed each other after separation for so long but i am wrong. very wrong. i let them meet, but upon meeting, they "merged" into 1 n became unseparable. i dont dare to put my hand to separate them coz i will be bitten. they dont even squeak liek they do in the past when fighting. 肥肥 no longer run away but is oso actively involved in fighting n biting the other. omg.. my dad 束手无策 too, wat we did that was successful in the past did not help either. luckily feifei jumped out soon. poor hamsters seriously injured in less than 3 mins. bloodshed. 案发现场有很明显的血迹. ='( 肥肥's mouth had bruises like he was juz being punched. one drop of blood dripped on the tissue paper that i left outside the cage. i feel liek bandaging 瘦瘦's arm, like those wif a bandage rnd his neck kind? haiz poor hamsters. it's v sad looking at how enemies they have became.. haiz. bathing session postponed again, have to wait for their injuries to held.. ='(
i dont long shopping suddenly but feel liek being under the sun instead. i want to go cycling n blading, haven been to ecp for long time man. my ecp kaki liek gone haiz. i want to watch sunset.. i want to exercise too, but i haven think of wat to do yet. haha is this another moment if impulse? not for the time being i think ha. i want to c the dentist, but it juz happened to be closed on that day i went. *piew. i have got a lot of rubbishie things to do, like selling the stupid econs textbook that i nvr use n the a levels GP tys. argh. n my yang qin, haiz.. i need a car to send it back to shang yi n say byebye by selling it at a loss. i need to find a place rnd the computer to fix the scanner which has been lying in the box for a long time. i dunno wat books n papers i sld throw away to make space for new ones. i need to revamp the rooms n the hse. argh.
- always here waiting for u -
12:07 AM
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Monday, May 08, 2006
haha happie day today, no is yesterday but sama sama coz the happiness is flowed till today lolx!! by right sld be meeting 2 pple n almost travelling half of spore, but ended up nvr meet. but heng, no need to travel till vomit. went shopping, really shopping. well, 1st time in my life i bought so much stuff but so cheap haha. really is qio dio alrdy muhahhaa.. so satisfied wif my 战胜品 haha... shant elaborate more haha look at photo can alrdy lol.
"da-dang-da-dang".............:
BUT PHOTO CANT COME OUT!! argh.. i shall try again.. but i really got super great deal haha. according to wat i have learnt today, the above item have fulfilled my expectation of quality, purpose, price, function etc etc haha. i can throw away those canteenchair/swimming/shopping etc etc free bags hehe.. 好bag难寻, really. well, i bring hill out esp to sch like 小叮当can? so muz find one as gd as his pocket ma haha!! BUT my super happie day is spoilted by the stupid details of my stupid elective stupid me choose to take. i am going to SU it man argh. case study 20%, project 60%, presentation 20%. super sian diao yest nit, but after attendin my 1st lesson today, wah not so bad BA?? dunno leh haha. 10 person in a project team, hope i wldn be the few suay ones to present ba? any sensible person wldnt be so stupid to get lousy me to present rit?? haha. i forgot wat i wanted to say, coz fang disrupted me lolx. i am at her hse now, setting off to partyworld to muahhaha SING wif belly lolx!!! haha only 1 thing to say: feels liek home wif them =) haha.
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12:23 PM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
helllo everybody!! wahaa i am back lolx!! means exams over lo!! haha... well we shall not mention abt that now.. haiz can write a heap regarding that 5 lettered word, but not now, when i got the mood.. haha holiday ahead, finally.. but i taking intersem module, starting on next week omg.. but nvm, it's only monday to wed, 9-12.. juz take it as i cant sleep till 12pm for 3 days a week lo whahhaa. the day is still young at 12noon man haha. so peepz, we can still go out, no worries! juz no k-lunching on mon-wed la haha.. n perhaps, i might have some difficulty finding jobz ba? nvm we c how it goes.. nothing toubles now haha. so any pt jobs anyone?!? intro k ahaha. talking abt jobz:
for once i saw a super nice temp job which i like so super much, totally suitable i think, n love at first sight. smt like PARTTIME assistant in bakery or customer service at where u guess?!? no experience needed n the requirement is: MUST LOVE DOGS!!!! omg... it's the perfect one, part time, then love dogs, means working at some cafe for dogs n owners lah!!! but the only prob is.... it's at...SENGKANG!!!!!!!!!!! please stop me from having the urge to go for interview n create a potential possibility of travelling 1.5x2 hrs everyday yeah.. haiz but i like the job... ='( boohooo~
well, juz starting my super slow friendster surfing n stopped at a friend's. jealous, super jealous of him.. learning wat he likes.. haiz.. it really takes a lot of effort to really commit to smt that is x n difficult but wat u noe u really like.. jealous, envious... i oso want to learn, but i dun wish to make spoil n rust their x n class n super chio set at the sch lo.. haiz.. maybe i will juz take piano as substitute 1st, at least piano wldnt rust rit? somemore i got one rotting at home rit? haiz but well.. trying to convince myself that it's a stepping stone to wat i wish.. actually piano oso not bad huh, like my laogong rit? ha or maybe by the time i piano grade4 or more, i wld've recovered much more n ready for wat i want? haha think too much, piano grade4...lolx. xpensive leh.. where on earth am i going to find $$$? i got so many things i want to do n more urgent ones to do wif the little $$$ i have tsk tsk. but i reallu hope to get something going tis holiday.. u think i can? haha we shall c 3 mths later lo lolx... haiz 3 mths, so many things can be done n so many things can happen.. well, if only if only.. if only i cld be granted one wish..
if only u cld be granted one wish, wat wld it be neh..?
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2:04 AM
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
muhahaha mingyong is super happie at tis point of typing lolx. hehe finally went to sing yest nit, after so long.. craving is v well satisfied lolx. actually is the process that is more memorable. thou had a hard time organizing coz everyone is bz, everyone actually turned up. all 6 of us wif my cousin's bf haha. 7 of us. 4 hrs at party world ain enuff. my cousin n junior to be is super funny. practially left me wif no image yest, coz laugh till my head almost went off. super funny hha.. he can really make us laugh n gao xiao lah, juz like his dad i think. very comfortable wif everyone there sooo gooda. heez. but party world no good ah, the counter really counting down til 4 hrs, no is 3 hrs 55 mins. argh. but nvm the lucky thing is they charged us for for person lolx. =x hehe talked at coffee bean at 11 plus. chatted abt a lot of things. well, it's really nice to be able to get together after so long. long time since we were young haha.. thanks everyone for being present n make me feel so happie n relaxed man haha.. it has been quite some time since i went out to enjoy myself, exams coming up n the stupid op really make me sian dao dunno how to say. argh. nvm after the op week, i can reward myself wif another k session muahahha.. free somemore lolx. but next week weall feel liek watching zhang shao han leh hehe. so many things to distract me argh. haiz but meanwhile, i realy really have to shou shui xin qing, speak more english n prepare my mugging mood argh*. wish me luck.
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11:05 AM
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